So what do you do when you can’t write?

I don’t know if this is writer’s block or what. But, for the longest time,  I haven’t been able to write. In the past, writer’s block has felt different. It felt like a stumbling block. It has never felt permanent – like it does right now.

I guess,  this is why I’ve practically abandoned this blog. I really want to start taking this blog seriously. So, I keep telling myself to write more, because, eventually, I’m going to write something people want to read. I’m just afraid I’m never going to get there -this is a huge fear of mine. I keep giving into the fear by not writing.

I know I created this blog to write about people of color in the media and, at the moment, I’m not. However, I am a woman of color (even if I’m not a novelist). I write; at least, I did. I wonder if I will be able to get there again. I haven’t been reading much either. I’ve been in a  really bad reading slump.

Honestly, I think it has to do with my favorite writer passing away. Ever since she left this earth, I haven’t been able to write or read much.

I want to change that.
I’m really going to start writing.
This time it will be different.

This was what I always say….

At least, we had one season of Cristela.

(ABC Network)

(ABC Network)

I hate that Cristela was cancelled.

I’m one of those viewers who watched and thought: “Finally, a show that represents me.”

I know, you’re probably thinking, “What about George Lopez, Ugly Betty, American Family, Jane the Virgin etc.?”

As great as those shows were, they didn’t resonate with me the way Cristela did. I can’t tell you how many times I watched the show and was surprised at how closely I could relate. It’s like this show represents those of us who have dreams, but haven’t had a chance to reach them yet.

Cristela had this dream of becoming a lawyer, but she needed her family’s help to get there. She needed time to build her career and that theme is very universal. I mean, we’ve all been there at some point in our life? So it surprises me that the show was cancelled.

This show may be “traditional” in the way that it represents Latinxs, but some of us come from those families. I know, I do. Cristela was made for people who dream of something better.

I’m sorry Cristela Alonzo felt so much pressure from the Latinx community to represent everyone. The truth is that this was one of the many voices in the Latinx community, just like the other shows(I mentioned above) were.  I hope, in the future, there will be other shows…other voices to represent those that are still silent…those waiting their turn to be heard.

You can read Cristela Alonzo’s letter to her fans here. I highly recommend reading it down to the bottom. It made me cry a little. Yeah, I’ll admit.

Thank you, Cristela Alonzo, for creating a show that represented your lived experience. I’m glad you got the chance to share, because it’s nice to see a reflection of yourself on tv every now and again.

Here’s a clip from a great show you weren’t watching:


lookaround138 (1)Hello all (x) number of you,

Thank you for following my tiny little blog. Especially, those of you who put up with me constantly changing blogs. I am happier with Media in Color; I feel like this blog has a purpose.

Anyway, January was a hard month. I guess, I didn’t realize I needed time to mourn Michele’s passing. I know, I followed some of you because of her.

Currently, I am a contributing writer for I’ll post the link to my articles as I publish them. But, I’m still going to publish original pieces for tumblr/

I don’t know why you all chose to follow me or if any of you will read this, but thank you for the support. Seriously, it means a lot.

Las Hijas de Juan by Josie Mendez-Negrete


Trigger Warnings For this book and Post include: Domestic abuse, violence against mujeres, incest, and rape.

This text was a really rough read, because of the topic. It’s about these girls who grow up with an abusive father.  It starts out with how their parents met and fell in love and it slowly and gradually turns into one of silence. Silence in the sense that, no one talked about what was happening.

**Slight Spoiler**

This book is great, because it doesn’t end with the dad getting caught. Instead, it takes a new turn. It’s a story about how Josie survived her father’s abuse. She talks about how it affected her life afterwards, which isn’t a kind of story I’ve ever come across before.

**End of Slight Spoiler**


As far as the writing goes, it is well written and the author is not afraid to take you into the place she had to live through. For those who have never lived this kind of life, I think it’s important to read. It’s a true testament to why rape jokes aren’t funny.

The author says it best, when she writes:

With Las Hijas de Juan I did not intentionally go about exposing my father’s contempt for women, something that seemed to come from his primordial self, as I had not been exposed to such violence among my k in. Rather, with this book I set out to reveal the social power vested in my father by a society that sanctions or, at best ignores men’s violence against women and children. His treatment of us remained hidden in a culture that still collides with the reproduction of domestic and sexual violence that kill children’s spirits and denigrates women even as it venerates them because of their gender.

–Josie Mendez-Negrete, Epilogue: Purging the Skeletons, Bone by Bone, p. 185.

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Old Review from a different blog, with some minor editing.

Ever wanted to love a book, but couldn’t?


Well, this was the book for me.

The story opens with Esmeralda growing up in Puerto Rico and it explores the different pieces of her life as a child. This is the entire premise of the book. At least, this is how it felt to me. These stories  range from her mother giving birth to her brothers and sisters, to language barriers, and exploring your body as a child. I kept thinking this book would start from her childhood and end with her as an adult. It sort of did. However, most of the book takes place in her childhood. I guess, my disappointment lies with the back cover of the book. It made me believe most of the book would take place in New York. Overall, the book is well written and I did enjoy it. I loved the story of her overcoming language barriers. How she fought against a system that tried to hold her back, because of it.


(This is my first book review from my former blog with some minor editing).